I want to remember.
I want to remember a time. A time where humans weren’t against humans. Maybe this time has never existed. A time where each person was loved for who they are, where there were no strings attached. I am sad tonight as I look upon the flickering light of my candle. I wish we didn’t pull each other down, that we worked to build each other up instead of being at each other’s throats. I wish more people were self-analyzers and worked at understanding what was happening in their head. I want to scream sometimes, pull people by the collar and say… “I AM NOT YOUR ENEMY”. You can’t possibly have what I need, I don’t want anything from you. Everything that I truly need resides within this skin of mine. So, stop treating me like an adversary. We only win if we do this all together. I feel so defeated as I look around my small town, so much good, but so much bad. So much unnecessary hurt and gossip. My neighbor makes the same mistakes every week. Same decisions, same people in and out, same 2am and 4am screaming match day in and day out. Tomorrow I may feel different about all of this, but today it hurts.
Random Ramblings from tonight.