Closing It All Up

This morning I woke up, the last day of 2019, I didn’t want it to end. I wasn’t ready, I hadn’t prepared for 2020. I hadn’t sorted through all the things on my list, I hand’t sat with my intentions, I WAS NOT READY. I wanted to hit the pause button, there were so many things unanswered, so many seeds still needed planting, I didn’t know what 2020 was going to look like. AND I still don’t. But after having Ghidrah’s year end meeting with my partners, something shifted, the future was still unsure, there were still questions that weren’t answered, but we were in it together and that made me feel less alone, less inadequate as I/we moved forward. I sit here looking forward to the last few hours of 2019, savoring this time of rest and not rushing into the future but sitting, resting and waiting patiently to close it all up into a tightly wrapped present never to be opened again. Reflecting on how the woman that started 2019 is not the same woman that sits here now. SO many things have shifted and I had so many opportunities for growth.

In 2019, I finally graduated from Adrian College with my Master’s degree. I taught at a yoga retreat in New York. I started working for myself full time. I used my new athletic training degree and had a special experience at Dundee High School. I decided on a wedding venue! I dove into self growth through shadow work. I started to try to figure out my relationship with food. I FINISHED MY ORACLE CARD DECK (soon to be published and available worldwide). I launched a podcast. I became an instructor at a yoga teacher training (Mystic Ways School Of Yoga). I became an adjunct professor at Adrian College. I became apart of a belly dancing troop.

These are just some of the highlights, the things that were once just a dream. But now I am ready to close it all up. To live and let go. Take what I need with me and leave the rest behind.

Here is to writing more, here is to more yoga, here is to more love, here is to more success. 2019 closed.

Published by austeenfreeman

Austeen Freeman is a mystic writer, life-long learner, and facilitator of healing. Author of the Mystic Wanderer Oracle cards, facilitator of virtual and in-person yoga classes, Austeen finds herself wherever she is needed. Her passion for teaching and coaxing students back to their bodies and creating a life soulfully lived, is the foundation of all of her teachings. Her pleasure is uncovering the mystery of the dark and shadowy divine through writing, online journaling challenges and workshops. Her words spill out like cold soothing liberating waters, beckoning you to walk a more mystic path. Her raw and honest prescenses comes from deep within our feminine bowl, you can find her at and at her local studio in Adrian, MI. Austeen has her Master’s degree in Athletic Training, her license in Massage Therapy, as well as a 200 RYT through Yoga Alliance.

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